Life break please?

Life seems to hurry up in waves. For a while, things are just going. And that’s fine. Nothing spectacular going on, no changes, just the day in and day out. Those days can be rather pleasant because I have nothing to worry about. I just do my job and go home and relax, or even start planning a vacation or small trip. I like it. What I don’t like are these giant waves of busyness and change. I had an interview for a job yesterday. Yes, it went well, thank you for asking. Interviews exhaust me. Whenever I have an interview or test, I mentally exhaust myself into a nap.collapse into couch

Still haven’t decided if I’d take the job if offered. That in itself is enough stress on my plate. I also have to take a test on Sunday for the guard, for continuing studies. More stress to add. Then once this test is done I have to get back to studying hard for the CISSP exam as well. More stress. I don’t like it. I start to feel like I’m back in college, except without the part time job and you know…free time.

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Some people thrive on being busy and having deadlines and overloading themselves on stuff to do. I think I used to be like that but realized it was doing nothing for me except causing break outs and small break downs. It wasn’t worth it. I can handle a busy workload at work – that’s fine. But compile it with a bunch of other things outside of work and this gal starts to stress and wear down. All I want to do is sleep.  bunny

Here’s hoping that this phase of busyness ends soon. I just need to knock out these tests and then sleep can come. We’re planning a road trip in November, which I am very excited for and am using as motivation to get this work done. We bought a new camera and I’m looking forward to using it on more than my dogs and my backyard.

Enjoy your Thursday everyone. The weekend is upon us!

Do something today

We are usually pretty healthy people. We exercise, we eat good foods, we make most of our own meals from scratch, but we’re human. We like beer, we go out to eat, and I have a horrid sweet tooth. But the last few days have felt like I didn’t just slide off the wagon, I was pitched forward and landed face first. It feels like I’ve been eating and drinking horribly for weeks when it’s only been days, but my exercise routine has dwindled to maybe one workout a week. This can’t keep happening.

I know for some people, they work out when they need to lose weight, or only think about how they will look after a workout. For me, that’s a secondary effect. Working out on a regular basis makes me feel better overall; I become less lethargic and have more consistent energy. I’m in a better mood, and I don’t guilt myself into shame if I do go have a doughnut for breakfast. When I stop working out, I tend to eat worse for some reason ( I think I just give up), I stop being active at all, I’m tired, more likely to get cranky and just feel uncomfortable in my own skin and clothes.

I’ve seen too many people with diseases and health issues because they weren’t active and were bad to their bodies. I don’t want to regret my choices later in life and think, ” why didn’t I just workout every once in a while. What’s a few hours a week?” So we’re getting back on the fitness wagon today. I want to integrate fitness, whether it’s runs, walks, rock climbing, hiking, whatever, more into my daily ritual. I want it to become habit, not something I “have to do”. I know that I’ll probably fall off here and there, but I don’t want to beat myself up about it. That doesn’t help. It’s time to get up and get moving again.

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Choose what you focus on

Yesterday didn’t go as planned. A lot of things happened, and there are a lot of things that I could focus on, if I choose to focus on any of it at all.

First off, I had to drive almost two hours south to take a test that would take approximately one hour. Not the greatest thing to have to do first thing in the morning on a Monday. The test was early so I left at 5:30am to give myself extra time, which was good because on my way there, the car died twice. Not helpful when I’m trying to stay calm on test day (I don’t do well with tests -lots of anxiety). I finally get to the test center, took the test (pass – woo!!) and headed straight to the dealership to drop the car off. I got to the service station and they told me they can’t get to it til Wednesday (UGH), BUT they have a loaner for me (phew), so they drove me to the rental facility. The rental wasn’t ready yet, so I had some time to kill, so I walked over to a cafe and got some crepes.

When you think about it, I could focus on the fact that my car died multiple times and is in the shop, that I had to spend more time than I’d planned out of work, that I spent more time at a dealership than at a testing facility, that I wasn’t able to get some accounting work done because I had to run my car to the shop, and that Monday overall was just a big mess.

Or I could focus on the good. I passed my test, which was the most important thing I was focusing on. It’s done, out of the way, and I’m happy about that. The people at the dealership were great in helping me almost instantly, got me a loaner, which is wonderful, got a ride over to the rental facility, and even called to make sure that I got over to the rental facility just fine. I had some awesome crepes while waiting for my rental. They were thin and smooth, with strawberries, walnuts and a sweet creme sauce on top. I have a flexible job that lets me work at home, so I still got a lot of work done.

How we approach the day and look back on events can really effect your reflection of the past and your future outlook as well. Remember to try to focus on the good. It definitely doesn’t always come first or naturally, but it’s worth the effort.

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