I started posting this when I was in San Antonio, doing some on the job training. I thought it was a be a slow but good three weeks to learn some more about my guard position, get to know the people down there, then come home and start work again, back in normal civilian life, but my September did not work that way at all. I ended up spending only about half of my time down there before my car broke down and had to come back home and cancel the rest of my time down there. (I also almost lost my civilian job but my boss went to bat for me and I got it back – phew!)
Now we’re going to try being a one car family for the time being. Hopefully it works out. I’ll keep you updated. So far it seems like it’ll be doable, it’s just going to take a bit more coordination.
So back to what I was posting as it’s still relevant, even with the recent changes, possibly even more so. There have been some unwanted/unforeseen changes in our household lately, and i could get spun up on them, argue about how this sucks, and why doesn’t our life look like our friend’s lives, blah blah blah. But why? What do our friends lives look like and why do we insist on comparing ourselves to others. Why be angry at what has gone down? There’s plenty of positives to go with it. Yes, I had to end my time in San Antonio before I planned, which means less pay, but I got to come home early. I hadn’t been home on a regular basis since March. It feels amazing. I absolutely love being in our home with Dylan. And now that we don’t have a roommate, the house especially feels like our own. My car broke down and now has been donated to Make-A-Wish (wasn’t worth fixing anymore). I could piss and whine, but this is a great opportunity for us to have to coordinate our schedules, and save some money on insurance, maintenance, etc. on an 11 year old money pit. I think also having one car in the family might open to even better communication. When you each have a car, you can be on your own way, at any time. You could practically live your own lives separately, going to work, coming back, going to the grocery store, etc. Now we have to coordinate these things and share transportation.
Even with these bad things happening, I like to reflect on all the great things we have/do in our lives. I like feeling grateful much more than feeling bitter about things. I’m grateful for an amazing husband. When I was feeling down after finding out I’d lost my job, he was my shoulder to cry on. When my car broke down, he was there to help me coordinate everything that had to happen. He was calm and patient and sweet. He’s my best friend. We have a great little house in a great location, that we’ve been slowly working on. Grateful to have a home. We have two hilarious dogs that keep us entertained and awake at 6am on a weekend. We gave our lives and decisions to God and trust Him in whatever directions our lives go, and with this knowledge comes peace of all the craziness that can happen in our lives, which makes it easier to be grateful for all the things we have and the opportunities we have in life.
We recently went rock climbing for the first time for Dylan’s birthday. I was secretly nervous to do it, because the only other time I’d attempted a rock climb, I was a horrible failure. I’d gotten maybe three feet off the ground and felt miserable. So this was going to be a challenge. On day one, we started out at Echanted Rock, where we climbed granite, and on day two, we climbed limestone at Reimer’s Ranch. Sometimes it just takes the right kind of lesson and encouragement. Dylan and I were climbing near 70 foot rocks after just a couple hours. I never thought I would be able to do something like that. It felt amazing. And now we’ve found an activity we’d like to turn into a regular hobby.
Sometimes when I post, probably because I don’t post often enough, my thoughts start to wander in all directions. But part of that is that life has us going in all directions. Some good things happen, some bad things. And I think it’s up to us on what parts we want to focus on. I want to focus on the good. No reason to focus on the bad.
So here’s a few shots of us, focusing on good, and having some fun for Dylan’s birthday. I hope to post a little bit more but the last week or so has been pretty hectic with all the craziness that’s been going on.